Week 9 in the Artist Way - reading my morning pages

Ok - so I opened my morning pages that I started writing on 1-24-2007 - over two years ago. The first paragraph that I ran into inspired me to post it - it hit me square between my eyes and helped me like me a bit more. At least I started on an interesting note :) So here goes - lemme know what you think :)

1-24-2007 9:09 AM Wednesday (yes I put the day and time - helps me have a point of reference)

Welcome to the first page of my 2007 journal. Warning the contents of these pages are my private musings and explorations. All opinions are subject to change in the middle of the page as well as from day to day. All venting or complaining are merely for the purpose to explore these feelings and may or may not contain valid opinions or feelings. You are entering an artists mind and life - sanity generally is a loosly used term or description.

yup - as I re-read it here it still hits home. That's incredibly accurate and I feel kinda awesome that I had the wisdom and the skill to write it. That may sound incredibly egotistical - the reality is that I'm just now starting to acknowledge myself as a writer and this was a great way to affirm that. Just as I start reading my journals to document insights and dreams I get met with this friendly playful me.

To me this screams "there is hope yet" Hope to become a writer, to continue to be an artist, to find fun and learn to play again. Hope in every aspect - it's a great feeling!

*raises glass* here's to finding something awesome you like about yourself that is truly you!

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