Artistic Musings

A Poem by Christina Nordloh written on Halloween 2009 I must have appeared As a drowning woman To those that saw me there Floundering and gurgling In the warm summer air Upside down and backwards a shadow of herself Grasping at nothing As I talked about saving myself Kicking this way and that A fool at best From the shore Those that could see Knew my efforts were fruitless In the shallows of the pool Their shouts did no good Nor did lectures or silence For Floundering was my choice Until something changed This morn when I awoke And placed my foot down I found purchase on solid ground and stood The water only reaching my waist Upon the empty shore A sign did read "Now pick a direction and see where it leads!"

I woke with a start from a dream where I was 17 again. Yet I had all the memories from where I am now, and even a sketchbook of all the pieces I had created between now and then. It was a wild dream. It got me thinking of all the things I would change if I were to do it all over again - what would they be. Since I lack the time machine, or the ability to go backwards in time - I can only grasp what I would and can change from here. What do I want to be, as opposed to what I am allowing myself to be. Procrastination seems to be the theme for this year. Not on purpose - but as a side effect as I muddle through an ocean of emotions and thoughts. I would love to say I have been drawing and creating every day. That my focus is on creating beauty that shines from within. In reality I have been growing and changing as a person, and realizing some of my dreams that I have let slip by over the years. I give my power to others and then make excuses when I don't take the reigns of m...