Passing of Time
I woke with a start from a dream where I was 17 again. Yet I had all the memories from where I am now, and even a sketchbook of all the pieces I had created between now and then. It was a wild dream. It got me thinking of all the things I would change if I were to do it all over again - what would they be. Since I lack the time machine, or the ability to go backwards in time - I can only grasp what I would and can change from here. What do I want to be, as opposed to what I am allowing myself to be. Procrastination seems to be the theme for this year. Not on purpose - but as a side effect as I muddle through an ocean of emotions and thoughts.
I would love to say I have been drawing and creating every day. That my focus is on creating beauty that shines from within. In reality I have been growing and changing as a person, and realizing some of my dreams that I have let slip by over the years. I give my power to others and then make excuses when I don't take the reigns of my own destiny. It's not working lemme tell ya :P
Yesterday I saw a dream realized. A solid financial partnership between my local Art Guild and the Local Music Store. We installed artwork from 24 artists - and the place looks amazing. I recall the stress and anxiety as people had to shift their thinking to this new venue so quickly due to the circumstances. I recall the personal stress I went through trying to decide the right course of action. I am thankful that I listened to my heart - because I have a feeling this will be an amazing journey for the Music Store, the Art Guild, and myself. It feels like a beginning with some powerful after effects.
I can't change the past, I can't go back in time. However I can take what time I do have and truly make something with it.
As my Grandmother is laid to rest, and memories of my childhood echo back to me in waves of emotions and experiences. The things that are very clear are that I have loved deeply, I have daydreamed what I want to be when I grow up, I have let opportunities pass me by, and I am learning to live again. What better place to really start living than where I sit now.
I would love to say I have been drawing and creating every day. That my focus is on creating beauty that shines from within. In reality I have been growing and changing as a person, and realizing some of my dreams that I have let slip by over the years. I give my power to others and then make excuses when I don't take the reigns of my own destiny. It's not working lemme tell ya :P
Yesterday I saw a dream realized. A solid financial partnership between my local Art Guild and the Local Music Store. We installed artwork from 24 artists - and the place looks amazing. I recall the stress and anxiety as people had to shift their thinking to this new venue so quickly due to the circumstances. I recall the personal stress I went through trying to decide the right course of action. I am thankful that I listened to my heart - because I have a feeling this will be an amazing journey for the Music Store, the Art Guild, and myself. It feels like a beginning with some powerful after effects.
I can't change the past, I can't go back in time. However I can take what time I do have and truly make something with it.
As my Grandmother is laid to rest, and memories of my childhood echo back to me in waves of emotions and experiences. The things that are very clear are that I have loved deeply, I have daydreamed what I want to be when I grow up, I have let opportunities pass me by, and I am learning to live again. What better place to really start living than where I sit now.
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