Distracted
The death of a friend completely derailed my focus on everything about a month ago... a death of an even closer friend derailed everything recently. My footing is teneous and I keep wanting to distract myself from all things.. I have thrown myself into work, I have thrown myself into trying to heal. My creativity needs to get back on track. I need to set a time of day that is no disrupt time that I can draw, create, craft. I think my quest to survive has been so all consuming because I am so far below the poverty line that any issue can tank my battleship so hard I could loose my apartment and all I have.. it is hard to have that tearing at the back of your mind all the time. Food stamps and donations from a local food pantry has literally been and saved my bacon and fed my kids. The need for a schedule that allows me to take care of my kids has been important. So I worked part time at Starbucks - they have ben amazing but ...