There are few things that can affect an artist more than living life through the difficult parts that threaten to tear a person apart. It has been hard to draw, I lost my faith, I lost my focus, and i lost my drive to really dive into the creative world for a time. I have touched upon it now and again as if to test if there was still something there - and in those moments when I am creating I feel so alive.. and then it would fade into the drama of life again.
I know the recipe to keep creating - I have walked the artists way a few times - I've been in shows and art guilds and inspired to create some amazing things that still give me pause to that whole "did I DO THAT!!" I have seen children inspired by the things I was working on and creating - I have seen children take the craft supplies I offered, the bit of basic instruction and create in ways that will forever live in my heart in happy smiles!! I know what to do!!
Doing it though - and keep doing it - has been tough - and it rocks my world with waves of things I have had to deal with in regards to the nastier bits of my real life over the last few years. As time passes, and each lesson - whether repeated or new - sinks in I am emerging into myself again. Owning my true and very real attributes that hold such joy for me. I am still gunshy and shy - but even that is starting to fade with every experience and beautiful adventure I am embarking on. bit by bit I am piecing myself back together.
It is showing in my artwork too - the detail is coming back, the desire for a challenge is returning with a fever, and the professional inside of me that knows how this all works - how to make it happen if I just persist and create and remember to play - that in all reality - that's what this is - it is being playful and joyous and colorful - at least for me.
So I am back on the trail, hunting the beautiful, amazing, and of course sci fi and fantasy that wants to appear in my canvas - and show me how it wants to be seen.
It feels good to be on the other side - to be alot stronger, and have every reason in the world to put everything I have into my artwork!! I cannot wait to see what this future holds - and for a change - I embrace it with vitality and exuberance and drive!!
I am off to draw - I have a goal of 400 pictures - it's time for number 10 to come to life!!
Happy creating to those that read this!! :D
I know the recipe to keep creating - I have walked the artists way a few times - I've been in shows and art guilds and inspired to create some amazing things that still give me pause to that whole "did I DO THAT!!" I have seen children inspired by the things I was working on and creating - I have seen children take the craft supplies I offered, the bit of basic instruction and create in ways that will forever live in my heart in happy smiles!! I know what to do!!
Doing it though - and keep doing it - has been tough - and it rocks my world with waves of things I have had to deal with in regards to the nastier bits of my real life over the last few years. As time passes, and each lesson - whether repeated or new - sinks in I am emerging into myself again. Owning my true and very real attributes that hold such joy for me. I am still gunshy and shy - but even that is starting to fade with every experience and beautiful adventure I am embarking on. bit by bit I am piecing myself back together.
It is showing in my artwork too - the detail is coming back, the desire for a challenge is returning with a fever, and the professional inside of me that knows how this all works - how to make it happen if I just persist and create and remember to play - that in all reality - that's what this is - it is being playful and joyous and colorful - at least for me.
So I am back on the trail, hunting the beautiful, amazing, and of course sci fi and fantasy that wants to appear in my canvas - and show me how it wants to be seen.
It feels good to be on the other side - to be alot stronger, and have every reason in the world to put everything I have into my artwork!! I cannot wait to see what this future holds - and for a change - I embrace it with vitality and exuberance and drive!!
I am off to draw - I have a goal of 400 pictures - it's time for number 10 to come to life!!
Happy creating to those that read this!! :D
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